Blogging Delay

I know it has been around 4 months since my last blog post, but life is just crazy for me. I find it hard enough to do little updates on Facebook, let alone here.

See, I am really sick. More sick than I even wanted to admit to myself. I've lived for so many years with my diabetes out-of-control, that I started thinking it was normal. And that is not even getting into the whole thyroid mess.

My blood sugar is very high. Put it this way... my A1C was 12. Which means that I've been living with 400 as my average blood sugar level. Not good. Actually could go into a diabetic coma.

I feel like I am living in a fog. It is hard to think and to focus. My short-term memory is poor. Side-effects of such a high blood sugar. Because of my memory problems, I actually forget to take my insulin and other meds. For the last month I've hardly taken either at all. It is a vicious circle.

Since Sunday I've had help, though, which I am grateful for. I get a call from my friend Kristine every day to remind me to take my meds. I've actually been remembering to take the meds before she even called.

Another friend is helping me check out alarm watches so that I will be able to remember to take my insulin before my meals, as well as taking it in the morning and evening. I take 2 kinds - one for keeping my sugar levels even throughout the day and the other before I eat meals so that it won't sky rocket after eating.

I'm seeing a doctor about the diabetes, of course. Saw Dr. Smith yesterday as a matter of fact. He said I may be a candidate for the insulin pump, but I am a bit nervous about it.

Anyway, I am writing all of this so that people will be able to understand why my posting is so erratic. It is not on purpose. I wish I could be better and write at least weekly. But I am doing the best that I can. Especially since this is only a part of the daily stress I am dealing with. Taking care of an infant/toddler while being this way is not easy. It is very difficult and stressful. Not to mention that I need to find a place to live by May 7th and can't find anything. So yeah, the blogging is just not my top priority. Hope that people can understand.